oooooohh aaaaahhh

So I just got home from the hookah bar, but before I went in my house I looked up. The stars seemed to be brighter than usual. They have a light blue shimmery color to them. They seem to be blinking and flickering. Some of them even look like they're moving. But one in particular southeast of the Orion's Belt there was a really big star I think I could have mistaken for a plane or copter. Although it was moving much it was flickering the most and was the brightest of all the stars in the sky tonight.

For a quick second I thought they might be aliens or spaceships, but that's just silly. 8P

Celibrity Crush

So there's this guy, and I think he's amazing. He's the vocalist of this one band. He has an awesome style, a bit western glam with a touch of avant garde. His voice is like that of an angel, and is a lyrical genious. He's got the cutest dance moves. Amazing as he is, he doesn't shout it out to the world. And for his name, well it's Brandon Flowers.








I hope to meet him someday. Not in the crazy fan kind of way. But maybe just randomly run into him, at a public place and be like, "Hey, you're Brandon Flowers. I love your music." And we'll have a short convo about how amazing we both are, and how great our outfits look. And then I could say I met a true artist. :]

Like thaaaaat'll ever happen, haha.

The Fame!

I completely agree with Chris Crocker on this one. I have a friend who's obsessed with being famous and it bugs the hell out of me. He wants to be famous just to be famous. I always ask him why he desperately yearns fame, and he always responds with the same question, "Don't you wanna be famous?" I personally don't want to be famous. I would like to have a lot of friends and be known, but not famous.

PS - We were only at the party for a total of 2 hours.

Gawd i feel disgusting just typing this out.

Last night I went to a party, got drunk, and I think I molested quite a few people. I don't
remember everything exactly how it went through, but remember more like bits and pieces of it.

It only took like 3 or 4 beers for me to get tipsy. Then I took maybe 2 or 3 shots of Captain Morgan and probably another beer and I was drunk. It's been so long since I've drank, I'm a lightweight again.

As I socialized with different persons and took some pictures with some girls I felt like I was having the time of my life. Martin [the guy who took us to the party] is gay and I think had a thing for me, nothing too serious but it made me horny. Not sure yet if I'm gay or not, or maybe even bi, I just went along with it. It started with bites on the cheek and then eventually full blown making out. When things got too hot to handle we had to ditch the party. Apparently from what I remember one of Martin's friends say, "People are staring" but what the fuck did I care, I was drunk. Then in the car on the way home, I behaved more sexually than I ever have before. I remember Martin being in the front seat reaching back, I think caressing my face as I sucked on his finger, then I reached forward and he sucked mine, but it was only for a few seconds that it lasted. Then he eventually reached down to my pants. The girl next to me kept slapping his hand away, but there was no stopping him. I for some reason thought the girl next to me might have been jealous I proceeded to kiss her neck and suck her ear. I think I even reached for a breast at one point but my hand was rejected with a big slap. Not really thinking clearly and caught in the moment I unzipped my pants as Martin was still caressing my dick. I pulled my penis out as Martin proceeded to stroke it. It felt great. I was still sucking that girl's ear at this point. It was like the start of what could have been a threesome. And I think Aaron saw this, he was either disgusted, embarrassed, or just starstruck. That's when Martin laughing this whole time in that giggle voice of his retreated his hand, and i put my penis back in my pants. I think that's when we arrived at Aaron's house. And this is just the beginning.

I was too drunk to even walk straight. I walked into Aaron's house, straight to his bedroom trying to avoid his family seeing the drunk mess I was. I laid on the floor, hornier than ever. Aaron walked in and he lay beside me. We whispered about gawd knows what, for quite a bit. But I do remember whispering to him, "I wish Martin was here so I could fuck him in the ass." I'm not sure wether Aaron was sober or not, but since we were laying beside each other, I think I began to caress his body with mine. My hand somehow ended up in his pants, I fingered him for a while and I'm not sure if we kissed or not. And omg, he has a fuzzy ass LMAO. I think he told me he wanted me to fuck him, but I don't think I even had the energy to do so. I think I said we should cuddle LOL. I knocked out on his floor and I woke up a quarter before six. Surprisingly he was already awake, watching TV with his sister. I think we talked for a bit before driving home. I took a short nap and went to work. My head was throbbing the whole morning, and I was nauseas too. And I could not get the stench of his ass off of my fingers. That motherfucker has got to douche, because I washed my hands at least 30 times, and used so much hand sanitizer my hands began to sting, and my fingers still stank. His asshole haunted my hand the whole morning.

Well I'm supposed to return some money I borrowed from him right now. So I hope things aren't too awkward.

PS - We were only at the party for a total of 2 hours.

Mixed feelings and Martinis

So I've currently been obsessed with the original NY clubkids. I've almost finished reading Party Monster, [previously published as Disco Bloodbath] which I have about 30 or less pages to read before I find out how it all ends. I'm excited, lol. I also went to a rave with CLUBKIDS as the theme. I've started looking for the movie, Party Monster and Shockumentary so I can purchase them and add them to my collection. I even started club promoting, well not officially, just giving out flyers and spreading the word of an upcoming event. I even got one of my best friends a go go dancing job at the event.

Since I stopped going to school, my days have been pretty empty and boring. For example: yesterday all I did was go to Starbucks, give my friend a ride to school, go online in the library, go to a pawn shop where I purchased a few CDs for 50 cents a piece and my friend sold a very old ring, went to Taco Bell and ate a burrito as I had a lovely conversation about Bill Clinton's curved penis with my friends, went to BestBuy & Barnes n Nobles in search of Party Monster and/or Shockumentary, dropped off my friend at work, picked up another friend at a different school, went to the movies and saw Wolverine, went to my house so my mom could apologize to my friend for calling her a slut, then dropped both my friends off at one of their houses, then came home, jerked off, and read a big chunk of Party Monster before hitting the hay. Wow! Now that I think about it, my day was more productive than I thought, lol. YAY me.

Every time I think about the future, nothing pops into my head. I have no idea where my life is head towards. Hopefully it's success. Well of course I'm going to be successful, but how? that's the real question. Ooooooooohhh, I just realized I'm dressed quite mod. Never thought I'd be able to pull it off, but I do it quite nicely. Now back to my future.... Time will only tell.

PS - The title makes absolutely no sense, [I think it might be a song].

Have you ever felt something so hot, it was cold?

For the past few days I've lived without my laptop. It wasn't until now that I realized how dependent I was on it. Without it I pretty much feel alone. Not because it was my electronic best friend, but because it was my gateway to the internet. Which is where i conversed with so many people, on myspace, facebook, and stickam. It even kept me entertained with videos from youtube, and gossip from stickydrama and perez. And now the latest craze, Twitter. Since my cell phone service doesn't offer a way to update my twitter through texts like every other cell phone service does, through my laptop was the only way I could update it. Until the geed squad at BestBuy say it's all fixed and good as new I'll occasionally, but not frequently, check updates on my step dad's desktop. It'll probably be like once every one or two days.

Since I don't have my laptop, I sort of got back in touch with reality and myself outside the internet world. I even started waking up in the mornings instead of the early afternoons. Today I went out for a jog, which actually turned out to be a walk/jog/walk/sprint/walk. It felt great. I also listened to my zune, which I don't seem to use too much. Then I took a shower in which I thought a lot. I actually thought this whole blog in the shower. Of course it sounded better in the shower, it usually always sounds better before it's typed up.

And about the title; when I turned on the shower the water was so hot, it was cold. For some reason it stuck in my mind. And now I think I'll twitter it before I get offline.

random and feelin irritated/tired/sick

So for the past few days, i've been feeling a real sore, and I'm not sure why. Especially my buttcheeks, but I think it could be the studded belt i wore all day and was sitting on for the part of the day. I've also had a head ache since yesterday. I haven't been eating right either. There's a smell in my room of mayo and cheese and it's bugging the hell out of me.

Last night while I slept I got bit by a mosquito twice on my arm. So all day I've been itchy on my arm and I it's been irritating me all day. I'm doing laundry at the moment and it's already midnight and I have school in the morning which I really don't feel like going.

Yesterday I went out to get some chinese carry out when a scary thing happened. I was driving home and there was an ambulance behind me with it's sirens on and everything so I started to stop but it kept coming behind me and I got way nervous, I had no idea what to do, cuz I thought it was going to go around me, but my dumbass forgot that I was supposed to stop on the right and outter part of the street. I was stopping in the middle of the street to my left. But I quickly pulled to the left as soon as I could and the ambulance dashed right beside me. There was an accident only a block down and I swear I was thinking maybe I could in trouble for having stopping in the middle of the street instead of the outside of it. And before I started to drive forward once the ambulance had stopped me, I saw a cop that was at the stoplight which I swear I thought I was going to get pulled over for doing such a dumbass thing, but luckily I didn't. I felt so scared cuz before I pulled to the right the ambulance was going so fast right behind me I thought it was gonna crash into me. :S